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Not who he used to be.

Jun. 12th, 2008 | 10:18 am
location: My Room.
mood: crushed crushed
music: Daath//Dead On The Dancefloor

Last night was horrible.

My now ex boyfriend roger was being a total ass.

I already left him a message breaking up with him cuase he was ignoring me. so yeah.

and than he texts me at midnight
Here's our convo.

Him: Hey, This is Roger. We're Over.

Me: I already left you a message that we are over. I'm gone forever.

Him: and your point is?
Me: why do you have to text? your a fucking chicken.

Him: no thanks
Me: Wtf yer dumb.

Him: Thanks. And Idc.

Me: Good
Him: Okydoky
Me:i never loved you ne way. [[so that was a lie, but i wish i didnt.

Him: Okay
Me: Yah just like you. you're another asshole whos to scared to call or talk in person so you text or go online.

Him: Who cares how i did it?
Me: I do.

And Brandy Said i'm the best thing you ever had
Me: Okay nothing today. haha. Well, Bye.

So yeah.

He stopped texting.

I'm sick of his shit.

He was never liek this before.

Hes not who i fell in love with.

He would never hurt a girl like this.



Im done.

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Jul. 11th, 2007 | 07:38 pm
mood: bored bored
music: Whatshername.

Secrets hurt the ones you love
but they hurt more when you tell the truth.
i have many secrets
and many regrets
you think you know me
but you dont even know

all these things i hide
the hurt from boys
the jealousy of those pretty and skinneh girls
oh, if yew knew it all

we try to hide our feelings
but its not healthy
you just end up more broken
we all wanna die one point in our lives
cause of all the hurt
cause of the people that
use us
abuse us
put us down
break us
but alot of us never do
because we know its hopeless.

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oh just tell me that you're alroight.

Jun. 1st, 2007 | 11:19 am
location: room.
mood: busy busy
music: everything is alright - motion city soundtrack

so yeah.
i havent updated in forever.
not much going on.
me and mike arnt together anymore.
and im single.
im waiting for a special someone tho.
i love him with everything.

thats him.
mmm. <3

but yeah.
thats all for now.
ill try to update more.
k Bye

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so yeah.

Jan. 22nd, 2007 | 06:57 pm
mood: cranky cranky

i'm gonna start keeping track of what i eat, weigh, and what happens in school. :P i'll also post icons, quotes, my poems and songs, and lyrics.

b: cini-minis
l: 5 minicorndogs and muffin
snack: gummi worms
s: pizza

weight right now: 139
goal weight: 115

school was boring today. cept lunch. me and brandi chugged water.
um. and i think i might become aneroic again. >.

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love me or hate me.

Oct. 28th, 2006 | 11:56 am

Hmm. so i should tell you what has been going on..

about 3-4 weeks ago, i overdosed. and was in the hospital. that night i couldnt even walk. even couldnt walk for like 2-3 days. and i was hallucenaiong and couldnt sleep. than they sent me to the psycward. for a week. than i got to go home. and now im in this place called partial where its school for 2 hours and 4 hours of group. im in there for cutting, depression, skipping school, and realtionship issues. i think ill be out soon tho.

so yeahh. thats why i havent updated for awhile

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Aug. 6th, 2006 | 11:06 pm
mood: annoyed annoyed
music: MTB3

hm. so im back from steele. we stayed one night later.

- went to steele.
- unpacked.
- walked to see margot.
- went to the place we were staying and watched final destination 3.
- hung out with margot at 10 till 11:30.
- went for a walk.
- watched 10 things i hate about you and slept.

- woke up at around 11.
- hung out with margot at 1-2.
- watched hawthorne heights dvd.
- went to chris's.
- brandi bitched at chris
- brandi ignored me
- joe called brandi a lunatic.
- hung out at chris and joe's till 1.
- chris showed me all his money. and i said he owes me some. and hes like oh yeah. at the corner that one night. hahaha. ♥
- went home.
- 2 guys came over who were drunk as hell.
- they're names were stevie and bryan.
- bryan bought us a pack of cigs.
- sat up and watched movies till 8am.
- bryan wanted me to sleep with him in chair. but im taken. so i didnt.
- brandi made out with stevie and flashed him.
- i slept at 8-12.

-went back to sleep at 4-5.
- went to chris's again.
- brandi was being a bitch.
- me and brandi got in fight,
- im not friends with her right now.
- made her cry.
- sister and brandi are turning aneroxic.
- and not much else.

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glide by the people as they start to look and stare.

Aug. 4th, 2006 | 02:55 pm
location: room.
mood: calm calm
music: Korn//Word Up

hm. well here's an update about today and yesterday.

- woke up at 2.
- went shopping.
- bought some stuff
- a7x shirt.
- a7x poster.
- skinny pants.
- fob hat.
- cross necklace.
- hung out with sara.
- came home.
- hung out with rich.
- came home
- fought with mike
- was all depressed
- got better
- read some of burned
- went to bed

- woke up at 12.
- called brandi at 1.
- going through my clothes.
- might be going to steele till saturday

so yeah. thats it.

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i've got no where to go. no where but home.

Aug. 1st, 2006 | 01:58 pm

hm. time to update again.

-slept till 10. cuase my mom woke me up. ]:
- went to pick up my sister and this kid she babysits.
- went shopping.
- got new shoes.
- Image and video hosting by TinyPic
those are the new shoes.
- went home.
- went to work. 3-7.
- went online.
- went for walk with mark.
- talked to sara.
- found out my friend lonnie is in ycc. cause this girl is saying he raped her. psh. whatever. i know its not true.
- found out sara is moving.
- talked to mike on the phone.
- went to bed about 3-4am.

- woke up about 11:30.
- ate gronala bar.
- took shower.
- work at 3-7.

hm. yeah. so not much going on i guess.

and um. i'll maybe update later.

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could this be out of line. just say your the only one. breaking me down like this.

Jul. 30th, 2006 | 03:41 pm
location: your mom.
mood: bored bored
music: Acceptance//So Contagious

hm. so i haven updated in a while. so lets see.

the key things of yesterday
- slept till noon.
- watched some drake and josh
- went to my grandmas aroud 4
- slept till 5:30
- had supper around 6
- had a nice talk with my grandma and grandpa.
- um. went home.
- went on the internet for about 15 mins.
- went to hang out with brandi till 10.
- went on computor
- was on the phone with sara till 2:30am
- got all depressed.
- went to bed aound 4:30am.


- woke up around noon.
- um. went online.
- smoked a cigerate.
- played sims 2
- ate ramen noodles
- watched mtb2
- went online again.
- was supposed to go bowling. but oh. my mom has a headache. >.<
- waiting for sara to call so i can go hang out with her.


- i went to sara's.
- went to dairy queen
- came home
-cleaned room

so yeah. that's what has happened so far. nothing to intersting.

29 days till school. ]]:

oh. and here's my work schedule for next week.

Monday - 3-7
Tuesday - 3-7
Wednesday - 3-7
Thursday - Off
Friday - Off
Saturday - off
Sunday - 9-3

yeah. so i guess its cool.

but anyways. i'll try to update later i guess.

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Jul. 24th, 2006 | 10:14 pm
location: home.
mood: sick sick
music: Eminem//Kill You

wow. i havent updated in forever. so first i'll catch you up on what i've been doing this summer.

i had summer school. ended last tuesday. now i work. and just been hanging with friends other than that.

umm here's my work schdule if anyone wants to hang anytime soon..

Mon - 3-7
Tues - 3-7
wed - off
thurs - 3-7
friday - 2-7
saurday - off
sun - off

umm. well last night i went to bed at 4. woke up at 10. so im like really tired and didnt feel good today. so i'm not gonna update about much cause i dont feel good. but i'll try to update more, loves. ♥

Love you guys. <333

♥ ♥ ♥

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